| --yea im definately letting this xanga go on vacation cuz i dunt feel like updating this wen my other ones oh so pretty.
do you ever just wanna cry fer anything and everything? ive never cryed so much in like 1 week. ive been ahving the best dreams but then wen i wake up im all sad becuse i wish it wuld have coem true. nothing good ever happens to me and im kinda sick of see everyone getting everything they want and having a little perfect life. i dunt understand y ive been feeling so outta it wen im with friends..like i just sit there and hardly talk..i hate that..y do i feel so like lonely and empty inside? i tthought i was happy being me and the way things were. i guess i lied to myself. </3
NEWXANGA
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| this weekend was alrite.. i was going through sum crap but well see how it is tommorow. saturday, i went to get my hair cut and dye bak to a solid color to get those nasty highlights out. then i went to waveland with hal and her payton peoples and melissa. but thne that was too expensive wen decided to go to AMC. mel and holly hadda leave cuz they hadda get ready fer joeys party thingy and stuff. so we took the bus to AMC and decided to watch White Noise cuz Jose(Joey) decided to run up and get the ticket before us so we all hadda see it. lol u guys were crazy trying to set us up. jose's a sweet kid dunt get me wrong but i culdnt stop laughing at him next to me cuz he was doing craziie stuff. very touchy feeling kinda person if u ask me. but yea that movie SUCKS! its sucha disappointment. like i was like so afraid to see that movie and like now i laugh at myself. dunt waste ur money on it...im warning you..so then we went to burger king and that was fun..im to tired to write everything down but i hadda blast. thne i slept over hals house, i love you babe..it was great finally spending time with you...today was great...church was amazing...almost got me in tears. i love the fact that the situation im in rite now thats brining me down was sum wut brought up..like it wasnt direct to em but i can say it did vbecause it was about being brought down by sumthing and just having to rise up and keeep on walking. dunt let it bring you down and stuff and it kidna helped. then i hadda talk with stina bout sum skool drama and she sorta helped me out. then went to macaroni grill with my family and then target shopping...woo hoo.. but yea im done here pictures...
we were in a red paramedics car!!! with the lights..o so kool
underneath the waveland table..lol
my " boifriend " and halley...
--now heres a sneak peek of my hair...
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| this week has definately been good to me. well fer most of it. today was awesome. so was yesterday. yesterday me and oksana bought cheese wiz stuff and crackers..lol yummie! well it started off yummie and now i just think bout it and im like grosed out. we were crazie. today i got stuck in that so called lunch room of ours. lol thanx buddie, that was interesting. and no im not mad..lol. umm the rest of the day was fun. i cant stand 8th period. like im so relieved wen the bell rings and i jsut run outta there. but neways today was fun i hadda a blast fer the most part. heres sum pictures...
--ewww, just kidding they are hawt mamacitas
--woo..sugar high! but dayumn look at those straight teeth. LOL
--drivers ed! remember the titans!!
-- L is for Love..ahahaha
--sorrie fer saying bye??..lol
nikie__x3 |
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| love isnt bout finding the perfect person but learning how to see an imperfect person perfectly...
hummm today was oh so better then yesterday, i smiled, i laughed, i cryed. all together it was fun. i hadda good morning, especially when szukala Sr. told me i was done with traffics since i got my first one as a B and i signed my stuff and everything. i was so excited. im done!! i just needa take my final and im finished and BAM a license. lol to bad no car but still it will be so much worth looking at something saying Licensed Driver. hehehe, well im off to go do some homework. so ill finish updating later.
So yea heres a couple peoples im simply in love with..
 
nikie__x3 |
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im so disapointed right now, i think i waste most of my time on certain people that dunt even care wut so ever bout me. that sucks but its okay im not gonna cry myself a river over you self absorbed peoples that think you can just walk rite over me everytime you freakin need something and just use me and not even appreciate me as a person...humm i think i just gotta learn to accept that you peoples arent gonna change and that you guys are just in serious need of help :]
[x] i hate crying, especially when i cant even find a reason y im crying in the first place. just a little breakdown. its all good |
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